tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-57734468852906894792024-03-12T18:37:08.521-07:00Nourish from the inside outAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01382824004623471361noreply@blogger.comBlogger9125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5773446885290689479.post-84998322845193997212014-06-29T16:43:00.003-07:002014-06-30T02:12:14.996-07:00Moving home and shedding my skin <div style="text-align: justify;">
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Anyone that has gone through the roller coaster journey of buying a home will be able to sympathise with the feelings I have just been through. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">The emotions, the tantrums, the worries, the ups and DOWNS, the high anxiety, sleepless nights and the stress. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">By god the stress is not good, it seems its just part of the process no matter what you do to stifle its appearance. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">It's one of those things that creeps up so silently and can give you an al</span><span style="font-family: inherit;">mighty fright when it appears. It shakes you up all over, makes you feel unbalanced, unhinged and overwhelmed. The pressure, the headaches, racing heart and the tiredness. They are certainly feelings I was glad to finally shake! </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">The ups and downs </span>are flipping <span style="font-family: inherit;">hard. The houses that you can actually see your self living in, that you can see your furniture in and just know are yours slipped through your fingers and to know someone else will be the residents. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">The open for inspections, EVERY SINGLE WEEKEND and nothing really speaking to you. The auctions where houses sell for so much more than you anticipate. And the lump in the throat when you know when you have found "the one". And that excited but oh so scary feeling when finally it is SOLD {to you}. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I am eternally </span>grateful<span style="font-family: inherit;"> to my mum and dad, for being able to want to do this for Darby and I. As a single parent on one income. I had </span>forgone<span style="font-family: inherit;"> the dream of ever living in my own home. It seemed like some far off magical dream, something that would be amazing but one that I had all but written off. So to them who have wanted to set Darby and I up for our most secure future, I will never have the right words to say or enough gratitude to show. Its sitting in my heart and waiting to flow into our new space. A space I can't wait to fill with such new happy energy. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Luckily now we are in the house moving stage (2 weeks to go, YAY) , so to be honest we are past all of the the hard yards now. Well if you consider packing light work. In my little haven I have found the packing a very therapeutic activity, it has been a way for me to sit and deal with past hurts that I couldn't bare to even unveil back then. Its been an energetic process, I am very aware of how I have been feeling has been reflected in the energy of our house and have made sure I have been cleansing it on a spiritual level every day. I have been talking to my apartment, as crazy as it sounds. In my own way, I have been saying goodbye, mourning for it and also celebrating the times that have been spent between these four walls. I have wanted to purge as much as I could. The items that no longer serve a purpose to me anymore. This I thought would be hard for the sentimental in me, but I have managed to release so much, and with so much more to give as well. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">I must admit I had let myself live in a state of disarray for the past 6 months, scattered, messy, cluttered and it has done nothing but heighten the stress of moving. I knew at some point this move would happen, but not wanting to deal with its emotional enormity. I am the first to admit I don't like dealing with things sometimes. I am aware of it, but now its about changing that. About wanting to walk through the yuk and to deal with things as they arise, not leave them festering away until later, and this has been a perfect example for me of something to work on. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">The emotions that have arisen have been only natural, and have shaken me up a lot more than I could imagine. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">My current little haven has been home to my son and I since our family separation 4 years ago. It carries huge memories, memories of him growing from a toddler into a now almost 7 year old. Memories of the happiness that we have fostered here. We have both celebrated 4 birthdays and 4 Christmases between these walls. There has been so much laughter and the odd tear. It was the little sanctuary that saved me, and that nurtured me. It allowed me to develop into the person and mother I am now. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">I carried a whole lot of hurt into here, sadness and adrenaline, from what was a very difficult and heartbreaking time. It has only been in the last year that I have found the forgiveness and compassion and this is really when I began to heal and evolve. I have learned to forgive myself for anything I did. I have wanted to stretch out my wings and discover new wonderful lands. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I have been craving a new space to carve out the new life I wish to lead now with Darby. As Alice so eloquently said in Alice in Wonderland "I cant go back to yesterday, because I was a different person then" And that is so true, I am the same, but just a whole lot different I am finding myself again, I have been slowing shedding the layers of my cocoon. I realise its just like the butterfly finding her wings. The cocoon that has nestled me oh so lovingly for 4 years is now no longer needed. I am ready to stretch these wings, and see if I can fly! </span></div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01382824004623471361noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5773446885290689479.post-39375106681235415902014-06-26T17:14:00.001-07:002014-06-26T17:14:16.827-07:00New Beginnings.....<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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This sacred space of mine has been free from my words lately. In fact I nearly forgot it exists, let alone anyone else knowing it was here!!<br />
I lost my blogging mojo some time ago and it never seemed to return, seemingly gone forever. But I know deep in my heart, that I love to write, I crave writing, I was born to write. So here I am today being bold and declaring that its doors are officially open (<i>and this time for quite awhile). </i><br />
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No one may come and read it, and that is totally ok with me. Maybe just my mum and a close friend, and in my eyes thats a win, because these words here will be touching someone.<br />
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It seems the big changes happening in my life right now are shaking things up a bit and with that shake up, I felt the need to be able to share, to empower, to perhaps ignite a spark in others (as much as ignite it for myself)<br />
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First and foremost I am putting my big girl pants on and embracing my 2014 intention to do everything with courage, to be fearless in the face of my greatest fears and to <i>let go</i> all of my expectations, my doubts and my limiting beliefs of the things I have inside to share, the niggling camparisonitis that plagues me.<br />
I know we all have our own paths to go down, our own trails to blaze, and that by posting this today I am just adding another voice to the path, another journey to be taken. I am forging ahead regardless of what my mind is telling me. We all have beautiful unique voices and a right to use them and share them in our own safe haven.<br />
So from today I will be found here voicing mine oh so quietly, but the bigger point is I will be sharing. </div>
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For the rest of the year I am ready to tackle this blog full steam ahead, with gentle love and no anticipation of what it may bring. I just want to be myself in each and every moment, day to day and see where it leads.<br />
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To lend myself the same compassion that I know I lend others. I am not going to let fear hold me captive, to get stuck in the a never-ending cycle where I gallop through the gates of my comfort zone with such raw enthusiasm (<i>I am a horse at heart.. its the sagittarian in me!<span style="font-size: x-small;">)</span> </i> only to get bound and gagged by anxiety and cold feet. I quickly go scurrying back to my sanctuary more scared, more paralysed and more stuck than ever. <br />
So I am declaring no more draft posts sitting in my blog waiting to be read <span style="font-size: x-small;">(</span>it should come as no surprise that I had over 100 drafts never published and now lost in in my last blog home - Adventures of Java Jane).<br />
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I will publish every last one of them here, even those that scare me half to death, in fact those are the ones that <i>need </i>to be published. The ones where putting my vulnerability on the line, my heart on my sleeve, a lump in my throat will connect with more, support more and heal some more. My motto will be to just "press publish", shut my computer down and walk away for awhile.<br />
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I will leave behind my perfection meets procrastinator personality and just publish. I have this niggling thought that the name of my blog doesn't represent who I am or where I am going, and instead of working my way through that and to just let it evolve naturally as it should, I have let it tie me to the gorund and used it as an excuse not to write.<br />
My mind is good at playing those games with me, all stemming back to my perfectionism and tugging at my lack of confidence, well I am saying goodbye to that. So I have flipped the mind game on itself, I know the name will evolve from within, but at least for now it will be a fluid process and my flow of words may just spark the inspiration I need.<br />
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I plan to let down my hair and have some fun and I know then that the words will spill out freely. None of this tangled up and so serious. I need to SURRENDER, to let go, be present and feel the JOY!<br />
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Can't wait to be back here again, see you real soon<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01382824004623471361noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5773446885290689479.post-8356696160848482602014-02-14T13:51:00.002-08:002014-02-14T13:51:57.219-08:00The concert that changed my life....<div style="text-align: justify;">
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Last year a concert changed the course of my life. OK, I know that's a pretty huge statement! So maybe it didn't change my life, but it definitely gave me the kind of jolt, that has flowed through my veins like electricity ever since and ignited such a potent year of massive changes. Before we go on, I have to say that music has always been my therapy of choice, it is the one thing that I attach so many memories to and the one thing that I turn to when I am happy, sad, playful, in pain, joyous and stressed. It soothes, comforts and makes me come alive. It always has.</div>
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So I will say this once (and I will most likely say it many more times to come) I'm in love with "The Boss". The man is my music nirvana! If you were a kid growing up in the 80's you would probably be familiar with Bruce Springsteen's music, for me, even though I could probably hum along to a few of his songs, all I wanted to listen to were the Bangles, Bananrama and Kylie Minogue.<br />
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It wasn't until I was in year 11 and studying International Policy, when the teacher (who was an adoring fan) told all of the students to go get themselves a copy of Bruce Springsteen's greatest hits. The ever obedient student in me went and spent my hard earned cash and got a copy. As I sat in my room studying the political landscapes of countries, I got distracted and lost in these familiar songs. Listening with with fresh ears and I really started to GET it. The words, the rhythm, the ache, the charisma. He had captured my soul! <br />
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Fast forward 15 years and he is still doing all of that (and more). His music helped soothe the pain of a <a href="http://nourishfromtheinsideout.blogspot.com.au/p/about-me.html" target="_blank">heartbreaking separation.</a> It was his anthem "dancing in the dark" that finally awakened my inner sparkle and gave me a sign that I had made it to the other side. </div>
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So of course when he toured Australia last year, I jumped at the chance to go, and not just to any arena, but to the mesmerising Hanging Rock. And that concert was the catalyst for something bigger in me, and as corny as it is it truly did spark that fire! </div>
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At the concert I felt like me, but a better, stronger, more joyful, energised, happier version. I felt so alive and vibrant, it was almost an out of body experience. I squealed and sang and danced and had no inhibitions. I was so present in my body, in the moment and I so liked how I felt. I wanted to bottle that feeling and take it home with me. </div>
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From that moment there was a significant shift in how I lived my life. I wanted to feel those feelings again. To feel the freedom and to be so present, to feel that sheer joy. <br />
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I had already begun to make small changes to the way I was living and thinking and this experience only accelerated the process. I began to say yes more. I began to listen to my intuition, to step out of my comfort zone and I really honed in on how I was nurturing myself. I began to nourish my body, and really take care of my heart. It had been hurt, so although there would always be those residual scar tissues from the pain, it was beginning to feel more open and complete, and I continued to use music and tapping into those powerful memories as inspiration to spur me on further.<br />
Positive people showed up in my life and my thoughts on myself began to shift ever so slightly. The things that didn't serve purpose in my life gently faded away. I became open to meeting new people and out of that some amazing friendships were formed, ones that I didn't see coming. I know there were many, many challenges along the way and I cant place all of the emphasis on Bruce, but just shedding those layers has made me a much better person, and more than that, it has brought me closer to who I really am. Not afraid to say what I love and not afraid to fit one mould. I am me, and this musical loving, passionate gal is just one aspect that comes along with being perfectly me. </div>
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I am seeing him again this weekend, and I know it will not be the same experience. I am a different person and I will not compare them. I am beyond excited. To feel and reconnect to that sense of fun and joy that I must say is much closer to the surface than it ever has been. I wonder what kind of change will be in store after this concert?<br />
I can see a big, exciting and challenging year unfolding, and I am sure that I will take some of this energy that I will get with me. </div>
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Where for art thou motivation to write? Where has that naked courage gone? Or that energy and all those stories you desire to tell? Where the bloody hell are they?</div>
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But why, why not? Why are you not sharing them? Maybe they are funny, maybe they are beautiful, maybe they are sad, maybe, just maybe they are so uplifting that they will inspire somebody else. </div>
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Who knows, but you do know that in your heart you are meant to write. To put words down on paper, to tell a story, to share words, and connections, anecdotes about life. To cry through the telling. Even if that means every word you write again you cry, sob or weep through. That in itself is the best therapy. The sheer relief and release of words and water onto paper (or keyboards!) . </div>
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Ok then, lets get to work, and get this show on the road! No more procrastination or filters here on in! </div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01382824004623471361noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5773446885290689479.post-34867832799991575062014-01-06T01:20:00.001-08:002014-01-06T01:20:17.988-08:00Taste of Summer Smoothie<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I am just a little bit obsessed with Green Smoothies. I'll take them any time of day, any place and with loads and loads of greens. Even my fussy little guy is a tad obsessed too, asking me to make them for him too! (Yay)<br />
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Green smoothies pack a real nutrition punch and are a fabulous way to get some more greens into your day, I know I feel a whole lot better when I have had my smoothie. Everything just seems to work better. Give it a go and see the difference!<br />
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This particular one is our new favourite combination. Perfect in the warmer weather, it speaks of summer holidays by the beach, if only Melbourne would provide us a glimpse of some warmth. A 30 degree day will be around the corner soon enough and I know I will be drinking this gem.<br />
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1 zucchini, rinsed and peeled<br />
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2-4 Kale leaves (I have more, but start slowly if you are new as the flavour is quite intense)<br />
1 half avocado<br />
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<span style="text-align: justify;">The word to centre me when I go off course and to guide me in my day to day life. To keep ever present and to come back to when I am feeling vulnerable and immersed in fear and self doubt. A word to hold close to my heart when my faith is tested, when I am feeling helpless or I begin to doubt myself, when life battles and joys are all too overwhelming.</span><br />
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I am not sure what it is I am letting go of this year, but I know it will find me. I know when I dig a little deeper, I have so many self imposed limitations, negative beliefs, anger, hurt and resentment sitting there just festering. I have known for quite some time that these will continue to haunt me until I have the courage to heal them, set them free and make way for the wonder that I know is around the corner.<br />
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Courage will guide me, to be brave, to be vulnerable to let go of these burdens, to imagine they are sinking to the bottom of a deep deep ocean, never to rise again. This quote by the extraordinary book I am reading by Debbie Ford sums it up so perfectly. I know I mustn't be the only one hanging onto past experiences, it is universal that we do this. It's all about identifying what these are and then being able to set them free. <br />
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To experience emotional freedom, we must accept, surrender and let go of our wounds. We must be willing to take responsibility for what we're holding on to, which is usually a hurt or pain from the past that leaves us feeling victimised. The code of emotional freedom calls on us to let go of "Im right", "You're wrong", "I'm good" and "You're bad" so that we can stand fully in our power. It calls on us to take responsibility for our lives and then, with grace and ease, let go of our excuses, reasons, justifications and righteousness. - <i>Debbie Ford - Courage, overcoming fear and igniting self confidence</i></h4>
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I will have the courage to find my magic within and the confidence to let it shine bright. </div>
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I will have the courage to stand up for what I believe in regardless of what others think</div>
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I will have the courage to take big brave leaps into the unchartered</div>
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I will have the courage to face my darkest fears, tackle them head on, forgive and then let them go</div>
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I will have the courage to say yes..... and to say no </div>
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I will have the courage to become a great teacher</div>
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I will have the courage to be vulnerable - to have those uncomfortable icky conversations, to ask that guy out on a date (no matter what the answer), to have a regular check up with a doctor, to admit that solo parenting is tough on my soul, to change jobs/careers if I don't like my my new job, ask for help when I need it, to be scared about my upcoming surgery<br />
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In seeking out courage in everything I do, say and believe, I know I must find my confidence and truly love and accept all of myself including my flaws and shortcomings in order to live the most authentic year yet. <br />
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Phew I cant believe 2013 is almost coming to a close. For me its been an epic year of self development and finally uncovering wonderful things that have made my heart sing (and occasionally rock me to the core).</div>
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I am beginning to really find, listen and trust my inner voice. I know that I will it will continue to play a big part and I will only begin to hear and let it guide me forth more in 2014.</div>
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I have made some of the most positive lifestyle shifts of my whole entire life. Not one of them has felt like deprivation or just a short term fix. After all these years I began to treat my body with the kind of respect it truly deserves, not just with the food I consume, but in the way I treat my mind. There is still alot of work to be done here, but it is something I will put alot of effort into in the coming new year.</div>
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I have finally released myself from the<i> long</i> and <i>sordid</i> battle with diets in favour of a whole food, gluten free, organic (mostly) way of life. I have finally accepted that food is in my life to nurture me, not torture me, that what I put in is designed to nourish me from the inside out. I have known this all along, but finally I was ready to take the steps to make the changes. </div>
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Regardless of what I eat, it was in giving up the mental torment of dieting and using some intuitive eating techniques that really gave me freedom and paved the way for even greater change.<br />
This all happened in March and led to a cascade of other events that have really shaped my year. Its funny how I don't feel like the same person I was 6 months ago, let alone 12 months. </div>
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There has been so much love and light in my year, but with that light, I have learnt that there always needs to be the balance of darkness, the lesson's from the hard times endured have and will be invaluable forever.</div>
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I have learnt to live, breathe and conquer in the face of uncertainty, fear, control and judgement. I have learnt relinquishing the need to know what was around the corner in favour of just staying and happily accepting the present moment has been one of the greatest gifts. </div>
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I have made some much adored friendships, strengthened others and with no animosity let the others that did not serve me gently float away.<br />
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I look forward to being able to share my journey here, to unveil more and more clarity in my life. Its exciting and scary to know 2014 will provide more great challenges, but I know I have put in place the foundation to be able to accept these with grace rather than resistance. </div>
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Heading into my 35th year I feel like I am just getting to the core of who I am and what I am about. I have this sense that I have been gently chipping away, chipping away to uncover the real me, and in 2014 I am well and truly ready to crack myself open.<br />
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So as a bit of a reflection, here are a few of my highlights reel of 2013. And in the words of the remarkable John Lennon.... We all Shine on, like the moon, the stars and the sun. </div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01382824004623471361noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5773446885290689479.post-42898811008336391972013-11-19T16:37:00.001-08:002013-11-19T16:37:49.852-08:00Life lessons learnt! <div style="text-align: justify;">
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Over the last few months I have been in the unenviable position of searching for a job. Not just for a career change, but for survival.<br />
My current work contract has not been renewed and I have been hurled back into the job market, which in its current state is not all that pretty. Throw in single motherhood and its been a recipe for many sleepless nights, anxiety, tears and panic. </div>
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If I had one word to describe the experience it would be soul destroying, yet as my spirit is being crushed, I also feel this new sense of strength and resilience kicking in. The kind of resilience I have called upon many times in my life, that grit that has got me through many previous battles.<br />
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It seems the vulnerability of my predicament, has been character building. The constant rejection has left me feeling hollow but at the same time I feel this new gratitude for the smaller things in life and a belief that life will have a funny way of working itself out in its own time. </div>
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I know this too shall pass and life wont be as it is right now forever, there will be a resolution of some kind in my near future. It has been in surrendering control and just letting things work out as they should that has proved the hardest step for me to take. </div>
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Yet I have also come to realise, with every unlucky situation that can be thrown our way, life has a funny way of showing us its sparkling best. There is always a silver lining, even if it hasn't come in the forms that I expected it to.<br />
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Even though this period has been challenging mentally and physically {I liken it to a ride on a roller coaster & I am <em>not </em>a fan of those rides!!) I know in time I will look back and be grateful for the lessons I have learnt and the person I have become during this period. As I peel back the layers of myself, I realise everyday I am growing, my courage is building and I am gaining a clarity about life that I never knew existed. </div>
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Letting go the reins of control is not an easy task to do. In this crazy world, having control makes us feel secure and stable. As soon as I let go of the control, I felt apprehensive and STRESSED, but as I sat with these emotions I began to see the benefit of surrendering. We never know what is around the corner EVER so I have learnt to just go with how the world has planned things out for me. When I started feeling at peace with things, movement on the job front automatically started flowing again.<br />
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I had this gentle niggle about something for a few weeks, at first it was ever so subtle but it didn't take long and it was all I could think about. I know this was my intuition ferociously tapping me on the shoulder . It was relentless until I took some action, and then it went away. </div>
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I have had plenty of job rejections in the last few months and at times they are pretty crushing. One in particular left me gutted. I was very attached to this job, convinced that it was my dream job, and almost manifesting it in my head that I had it in the bag. So when I received the call to in fact tell me I was not successful, it took all strength I had not to burst into tears on the phone. I spent the night on the couch, crying and sobbing, I let myself grieve the lost opportunity and I made myself move on. </div>
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As my moods started to get more erratic and the anxiety started to mount I decided I needed some tools to help me cope. For me exercise is always a sure bet. It puts me in my happy place, it rounds out my moods and it empowers me to cope with anything being thrown my way. Not only does it make me feel stronger on the outside, it also makes me feel much tougher mentally. In the last few weeks I have doubled the amount I had been doing and its left me feeling more balanced, alive, energetic and happy. </div>
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When I went through my relationship breakdown a few years ago, I thought it was best to put on a tough as nails front, but really it was just an act and it took me a long time to break down those barriers and open up and express how I was really feeling. I realise now that adrenaline played a huge part in keeping me going. My poor old body was at battle with itself, always fatigued. I have learnt alot since then about how our bodies work at their best , and I knew with this situation I needed to just ride the waves of my emotions. There have been times I haven't been able to hold back the tears, They just came naturally, I have cried at work , in the supermarket in cafes, just about anywhere. I have been angry, jealous, sad , anxious and just about every emotion.<br />
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A tight support network is pivotal in getting through any life crisis, and for me having a select group of friends around to support me has been gold. Without a partner at home to hear my daily ups and downs, my friends have lifted me up when I am down, they give me perspective, advice, sincere help and they just listen. I couldn't have coped without them. </div>
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Life is for living, at times its easier to retreat into my cave and watch as the world passes by, the time just ticking away.</div>
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But I am an adventurer at heart, I need to be free, outdoors and experiencing life. We have taken day trips, visited places I have wanted to see, dipped my toes in the ocean, and just lived as best we can with what we have right now!</div>
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I have found the little moments in the every day all the more enjoyable; </div>
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I was driving home from a non eventful Monday morning supermarket shop, and a semi trailer didn't give way and drove out in front of me. It was obvious that he had not seen my little white car. <br />
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I pulled over to the side of the road, my heart thumping so loud I could hear it and adrenaline pulsating through my veins. My fight or flight response had well and truly kicked in and I needed a few moments to compose myself, to sit back, close my eyes and just breath. </div>
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I guess this was normal given the situation, but I certainly shouldn't have been blaming myself. My inner wisdom knew I was just punishing myself with criticism, but somehow I couldn't turn these thoughts around.<br />
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They are automatic and I realised that I do this all the time, in every situation. No wonder my self belief and confidence is so low. It keeps getting pummelled by this nasty voice in my head at every turn.<br />
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I know I am an incredibly positive person, a glass half full type, but to myself I am nothing of the sort. I love inspiring, helping and supporting others, cheering them on, but really I need to be cheering myself self along.<br />
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So I am on a bit of a mission to change that, to peel back the layers and work on improving my self worth. <br />
I am sick of being the victim to my own voice. Its time I reveal the resilient, positive and self loving warrior that I know I am. I just need to work on uncovering it and allowing it to speak. </div>
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This blog, my little place to spread inspiration about living a healthy life from the inside out, has been sitting dormant and wordless for weeks. I didn't think the words I had deserved to be heard, I didn't think it was pretty enough, I didn't think I was had enough to offer, or the knowledge to write. I now know I wasn't being held back by what others thought, I was being paralysed (and darn right silly) by what I thought.<br />
Somehow it took this unnerving incident to make me realise that I needn't care about that. I just need to take action to improve myself, to cause my own ripples and the rest will take care of itself. </div>
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I am not here to change anyone else, I am here to change myself, to finally reveal that true positive thinker that I know resides inside somewhere deep.<br />
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Although if this journey of mine at all gives you any hope or guidance or even the motivation to make changes too to how you live, breathe and think, then my job is done. The inner teacher in me will be happy.<br />
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